AF was due today. So, of course, I decided to POAS yesterday (11 dpo, not fmu). Geez, it's like talking in code! Haha. Anyway, I got a bfn, duh! Last night the cramps kicked in, but af was a no show this morning. I decided to take B&G for a walk and was feeling a bit sluggish so my mind starts wandering to having three kids under three and how awesome it would be. How awesome it would be to not go back to the RE. How exciting it is to be one of those people that gets pregnant the old fashioned way.
Then, I got home and went to the bathroom and my monthly visitor had arrived. Daydreaming over. Must go buy supplies and not a digi to confirm pregnancy.
The awful thing is that I play out this fantasy every. single. month. I'm pretty sure this cannot be normal.
So, I'm turning off the CBEFM and going to the RE at the end of the month and hopefully have an IUI at the end of the year. In the meantime, I'm going to focus on losing some much needed weight (right after I have my sympathy mac and cheese!).
Please don't get me wrong, I realize how blessed I am to have my little guys. I actually thought that when I got pregnant and had the boys I wouldn't have these feelings anymore. I can't believe I still have them and still am a POAS addict.
In other news, the boys helmets are off during the day and only on at night. Sort of like a retainer. Yay!
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Sorry AF showed! In my 3 yrs of TTC I lived out the fantasy every single month too...even on the ones I knew there was no chance. So even if it's not "normal" know you have company =) WOO-HOO for the boys only having to wear their helmets at night!
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