In limbo

I promised myself I would dust this thing off and update! First of all the boys turned three two weeks ago. Yikes! 

Then and now:

Three days later Katie turned 10 months old. I can't believe she'll be one in the blink of and eye. 

And she's standing. 

Our house sold and were in the process of building a new one. So we're in limbo again at my grandmother's home. It's good to have a space for us, but I'm a creature of comfort so it's hard for me to not have our familiar things. I know we're very lucky, but it's more of an OCD thing for me. 

But you can't beat the view for now. 

Pennsylvania is beautiful in the fall for sure. 

The house we are building will be in Ithaca NY. It seems quite nice. I'm not very familiar with it yet. 

Here is the house under construction:

Our fifth anniversary is at the end of November. So much has happened in those five years three moves, IF, twins, and a singleton. Now the future. The future seems shaky. My husband seemed upset to leave the defense company he worked for over 15 years for even though he had zero work life balance. Part of me is scared he resents that we've moved closer to my family in an unfamiliar area. Even though Ithaca will be 70 miles from my parents. I just don't know what to do and between him and the demands of three little ones I'm kind of mentally drained. Some days are better than others. I try to talk to him about it but it seems like he resents selling our house and buying a smaller one. I think most of this is ego, but I'm not sure how to help him sort through all of this when I am just so tapped out. Sometimes I wish I could just make it all go away. We could go back to him being gone from 5 am - 7 or 8 pm everyday and scared about job security. I think he's forgotten about those times. 

When people talked about marriage being work I would laugh, but I'm beginning to see what they meant. Just say a little prayer this storm passes soon!

And on one last note a sorority sister of mine has a four year old son battling a brain tumor which makes my worries seem petty so if you could say a prayer they are getting ready to undergo a month of intense treatments in November.