Monday, December 28, 2009
It is so weird not tracking
My sister is getting married in September so we decided to take a month off from trying and it's kind of liberating. But it is so weird not to know where exactly I am in my cycle. I actually wish we could just take a few months off sometimes, but I feel that will my 33rd birthday looming in a few months time is not a luxury we have right now. I just hate the disappointment month after month. So far all of our cycles have been natural and I wonder how much more devastating it will be to have AF show up after being medicated. I'm not sure if I'm ready for it yet, but I know it'll be coming up soon. We just have to get my CD3 b/w and the hubbies s/a (all next week) before we find out what our plan of attack is. So, while I'm happy to have a plan of attack, I'm terrified that whatever we do won't work.
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It's so strange to think back before TTC. I never knew where I was in my cycle, didn't care, never thought about it. I so wish I could go back but I think I'm already too far gone!
ReplyDelete8 months trying for us.
I know what you mean about the month after month of disappointment. It's a little hard to stomach sometimes and there are moments when I wish I could walk away. But even when you take "off" for a cycle, it's hard not to think about it. I hope all of the testing goes well and it goes by fast.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel! I'm trying to take time off, but I'm being drawn to the OPKs. I'm not temping which is always nice, but I still feel like I should put forth some effort. Hope everything goes well with your upcoming testing!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your testing next week! I hope everything goes well and you get a great plan! I remember feeling so much better once we had a plan from our RE.
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